To Drugs
July 28, 2016 at 4:25 p.m.
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As far back as I can recall I have memories of you. All my family seemed to like you, yet I didn’t have a clue. You were in my life everyday whether I liked you or not. You had many names like Mary Jane, skunk, weed and pot. I remember loving the way you smell. Little did I know, you’d be my guide into hell.
In the beginning of our relationship everything seemed great. I was happy and felt butterflies like being on a first date. You made me smile and laugh when I wanted to cry. I could even make new friends and not feel so shy. I felt so courageous and no longer afraid. I thought I could now measure up, I could make the grade.
You were there through the good times and the bad. I thought you were the best friend I’d ever had. There were times, however, when you made me feel lazy and tired. So I started making new “friends” and began getting wired. My new “friend” gave me energy to get things done. It wasn’t long before wanting you around became more of a need. I soon couldn’t cope, function or get out of bed without my new “friend,” speed.
My need for my new “friends” turned into abuse. No matter how hard I tried I could not call a truce. A war was on, it was a battle to the death. Had I not surrendered, you’d have taken my last breath. I could never have imagined how hard it would be to let you two go. But I’ve decided it’s for the best because I hold me back when I need to grow.
In abusing you I hurt many people, but none more than me. By letting you go, I’m setting myself free. Today I can learn and grow without altering how I feel. With support from my Higher Power, family and friends I am beginning to heal. I can in turn be a true friend, sister, daughter, mother, aunt and wife. So I’m writing to gell you, once and for all – stay out of my life!
Deanna Davis
Madison Indiana Therapeutic Community
Madison, Ill.[[In-content Ad]]
As far back as I can recall I have memories of you. All my family seemed to like you, yet I didn’t have a clue. You were in my life everyday whether I liked you or not. You had many names like Mary Jane, skunk, weed and pot. I remember loving the way you smell. Little did I know, you’d be my guide into hell.
In the beginning of our relationship everything seemed great. I was happy and felt butterflies like being on a first date. You made me smile and laugh when I wanted to cry. I could even make new friends and not feel so shy. I felt so courageous and no longer afraid. I thought I could now measure up, I could make the grade.
You were there through the good times and the bad. I thought you were the best friend I’d ever had. There were times, however, when you made me feel lazy and tired. So I started making new “friends” and began getting wired. My new “friend” gave me energy to get things done. It wasn’t long before wanting you around became more of a need. I soon couldn’t cope, function or get out of bed without my new “friend,” speed.
My need for my new “friends” turned into abuse. No matter how hard I tried I could not call a truce. A war was on, it was a battle to the death. Had I not surrendered, you’d have taken my last breath. I could never have imagined how hard it would be to let you two go. But I’ve decided it’s for the best because I hold me back when I need to grow.
In abusing you I hurt many people, but none more than me. By letting you go, I’m setting myself free. Today I can learn and grow without altering how I feel. With support from my Higher Power, family and friends I am beginning to heal. I can in turn be a true friend, sister, daughter, mother, aunt and wife. So I’m writing to gell you, once and for all – stay out of my life!
Deanna Davis
Madison Indiana Therapeutic Community
Madison, Ill.[[In-content Ad]]
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